Soul Guide

I tend to remember a lot - which is good - but since I have this lovely blog to record things in, I figured I might as well use it.

Many years ago - around 1998 or so - I connected with my main guide in a way I never had before. I started to receive messages from him, actual words of conversation. One of our conversations that always stuck out in my mind was when he told me that when I'm ready, he and I will rejoin and become one. He told me this long before I'd done any spiritual studying, before I'd read anything about how this is a common goal for souls. I knew nothing about guides, only that I always felt him with me and knew it to be true.

Later I would learn that it's a common belief that everyone has at least one guide - sometimes more. They are often other aspects of ourselves, from other times. Sometimes they are deceased relatives who come in briefly to help with specific things, then go on to help other members of the family. But our "Main Guide" is different. He or she is the one who stays with us for our entire lives. They walk on the other side as we walk here. Often, they are considered to be our Twin Souls - the other half of our soul (although it's not uncommon for twin souls to be both be born at the same time nowadays - it's a specific spiritual thing that's happening). The theory goes that when souls are created, their last division is one of polarity - split in two to channel male energy into one and female energy into another. Both souls retain aspects of both male and female, but I guess it's like one is "more female" and the other is "more male".

These twin souls go through lives together, typically with one on the other side guiding and aiding the one who is born. And the goal of both is to advance and grow until the time comes that they will reunite into One Soul. Of course, this is speaking from a linear viewpoint, and if you were to consider life as going on continuously all things are happening at once, and thus we are already united.

But that's another story.

The thing is, this has all come crashing back to me. Yesterday I discovered my throat chakra was blocked, due to my lack of communicating. I knew, on some level, that this was true for a long time. I want to communicate now, and so when I feel like it I will post here. When I feel it's too personal for that, I'll write it to only myself. My block is lessening now, I can feel it (literally) and it's great.

I feel blessed to know Rael, my main guide, my Twin. I've known of him for a long time this life, but it wasn't until sometime in 1998 that I began to speak with him, and later still that I discovered his name (though I feel this is just a name I can use - but that the name itself doesn't matter. He probably has other names, and it'll be exciting to discover them). I also feel that at Christmas 2002 he and I began to get even closer than we were before. I think over the course of 2003 we became like one, as much as we can while I am still alive.

I'm ready to re-open the lines of communication with him. We've communicated constantly through feelings and dreams, but I think it's time to talk again.