Christmas Spirits

I had a dream a couple nights ago. In it, it was Christmas.. Christmas day, I think, and I was with my family at our old house on Janzen St. The odd part was - I had a brother. He was tall, but young, probably around twelve or thirteen. He had blond hair (possibly close to light brown) and glasses. His name was John. In the dream, the way it was presented to me was like Dawn in "Buffy". It was like, suddenly I had a brother and everyone acted like it had always been that way, but I knew it hadn't been. I had memories of him, but knew they were "planted". But it didn't really matter - everyone accepted that he was my brother and so did I. I just knew he hadn't always been there.

I remembered it with clarity upon waking (along with how we had troubles with lights and balancing a mini-tree; that part was precognitive of my tree-difficulty that I had the following day!). Later that day I told mom about it. She got really quiet. Years ago she had become pregnant, but her doctor had advised her that she was too old at the time. It was a high-risk pregnancy - either the baby would be stillborn, deformed in some way, or it could kill her. So mom and dad decided to abort the pregnancy. Although we regretted not having the new member to our family, we never regretted the abortion.

But who's to say we didn't gain a new member to our family anyway? You see, years later I talked with mom about it and confided to her how I always had a feeling it would have been a boy. She'd had the very same feeling. So now, when I told her about the dream, it was very bittersweet. She admitted that, if dad had of agreed, she would have named the child John because that was the name of her first love. And, if he had of been born, my little brother would have been around eleven or twelve right now. The other thing was, mom reminded me that it had been around this time of year that it had happened, and she feels it's why she gets sad at Christmastime now.

A while ago a friend of mine, someone who can sense spirits, told me she felt a young male was with me. I'd wondered if it was my guardian/twin, Rael, but no.. Rael is not a "young male". He comes up differently, and she described him later. No, the young male is John. My little brother.

Xmas Tree!

Got together with mom today to put up my Christmas tree. After a bit of a holiday blues (stupid old tree with it's crappy stand and gaps), we decided to go out so I could buy myself a new tree. Thank goodness! The stand is so cool (no pieces to lose) and the tree itself is really nice. I decorated it with white lights and gold/white decorations this year. It's really pretty! (picture to come)

Dad took my new hard drive out of my old computer (they were incompatible) so he can use it in the new one he's getting me. Hopefully that's going to happen relatively soon! He's threatening me with having no computer for a few weeks as they do this, but I can't afford to have that happen!! I don't know how to get around it. He can take out the sound card, dvd player, cd writer to put in the new one. I can go without sound. He doesn't need anything else except the modem.. but I need the modem in the old one!! I don't know what to do. I have things to do online, it's a busy season, I can't be without the Internet for a couple weeks! And what's really really stupid about this is that 2 months ago I would have been fine without it for a couple weeks. Nothing was going on. All summer, in fact. Very much nothing going on online. But now I'm very busy online. The only hope I have is if he can take it all except the modem, and plug that in later.

Playing my priest, Drusylla, a couple nights ago I met a rogue named Semmiron. He's actually really nice (well, okay, I've met other nice guys but so many are immature). We met up again tonight to do a little terror hunting. We talked some OOC as well. He lives in Winnipeg! I don't know how old he is, but I'm assuming at least adult because he was talking about work and having his own place. We both said that we're not exactly looking for online dating, just friends, so that's good. It's always best that way to start (and good to say it up front so if you begin to play a relationship IC there's no confusion with OOC). Who knows what time could bring.. he could be a big jerk.. or a big sweety! ;)

ELF - Elephants Love Freaks

Except for the noisy workers interrupting my sleeping in, it was a good day of doing basically nothing. Andrea came to get me around 3:30 and we went off to see "Elf" at Colossus. It was a good movie. Funny, heartwarming. Typical, but not bad. We went to eat after. Her wedding's getting pretty close!! We talked about how we rarely get together, but how we'll always be in each other's lives in one way or another. We're like the kind of sisters who don't talk for years, but are still sisters.

Ixnay on the usybay!

My goodness, was it ever a busy day today!! I don't really have anything to "report" except wow, very glad that day's over. Not a bad day, just busy! Oh, and I got to talk to Gina (black haired girl) briefly on MSN in the evening. She seems nice, and we have common interests. Might be a new friend. Oh, she has a son who's 8 years old and a daughter who's 18 months.