Soul Group Call Home

I'm just so excited right now I couldn't wait until tonight to post about this. I've been reading a new book called "We are the Nibiruans".. and while the first part is filled with interesting, though hard to believe theories on the origin of mankind, the second part is filled with the reason I was drawn to buy the book - a "cleansing" process meant to help one connect with their soul's mission and higher consciousness.

Reading it has been a grand trip already, and I just began reading the section on the cleansing. The first two levels are all about releasing anger and negativity, and especially in healing relationships with others. Well, I spent a good part of last night laying in bed pondering on what I need to work on. Lucky for me, I don't hate anyone in my life, past or present, and I don't hold any resentments or negativity towards anyone. The only two that I felt were little grey in this manner (a mother and daughter who were friends of the family when I was a kid) are long out of my life, and I can honestly say I don't hold any ill will towards them. They gave me many great lessons, and I'm grateful for it.

I feel changes happening already - mostly of a psychological manner. A memory of a feeling I had as a young girl returned, and I think I know what it was in relation to now... but more on that another time.

I also feel that my soul group is being called together. I believe soul groups are groups of souls who make arrangements before life to accomplish certain things while living. All members have particular "missions" to do, and some members are meant to come together to complete these missions, while others do their own missions with others.

I know a few members of my soul group. I've been in contact with two of them recently - one of whom is my best friend.. the other, a new friend. And just last night I met another new friend who I believe I have shared past lives with in other places... another piece of the puzzle!

And just as the book predicted - beginning the cleansing has brought up others. Yesterday, before even reading anything about the levels of cleansing, I suddenly knew I had to get back in contact with someone who I know is a part of my soul group, but who I took some time away from. And what happens? Today this person emails me. :) And at the same time, another person from the group who I haven't spoken with in a long time also emails! I had been wondering last night if this person was one I should contact again - and our guides made sure to give the answer for us!

I can't wait to see where these old friendships will go now, and where the new ones will lead! This is such an exciting time!

I nearly felt like crying for the feelings of happiness and lightness... the changes are rolling in, and I can't wait for the rest of the ride!

Nature Harmony

Just a very short note of a fun occurance... was on my way home from shopping today, and got caught in a downpour as I was waiting for my bus. I quickly thought, "Please lighten up the rain!" and instantly it lessened. I'm not kidding - and I don't care if it was coincidence or not. The point is that the downpour suddenly changed to a fun Spring sprinkle and I quite enjoyed it. :)

I went out to Food for Thought today and picked up some crystals (one for each of my chakras) as well as a copy of the book "We are the Niburians", which has lots of interesting info about DNA recoding and other stuff. Can't wait to read it!

Truth Laid Bear

Oh wow! I just found out I've been LINKED to... oddly enough, I know I've been linked to, but this one... I had no idea! The Truth Laid Bear.

I'm a Multicellular Microorganism in the TTLB Ecosystem

Very neat little tidbit - if you go to Google and type in link:www.yourlink.com you can see who's linked to you! I'm not sure how accurate it is, though, since nothing else came up for me and I know I'm linked to from Antwan... though maybe it doesn't work if the site isn't spidered... but my main site is linked to by some spiritual site (or last I heard it was) and it should be spidered, so who knows. Fun anyway!

Oh, and this has nothing to do with anything, but I found a new font and had to make this.

Maybe Zod can put it to good use?

Soul Guide

I tend to remember a lot - which is good - but since I have this lovely blog to record things in, I figured I might as well use it.

Many years ago - around 1998 or so - I connected with my main guide in a way I never had before. I started to receive messages from him, actual words of conversation. One of our conversations that always stuck out in my mind was when he told me that when I'm ready, he and I will rejoin and become one. He told me this long before I'd done any spiritual studying, before I'd read anything about how this is a common goal for souls. I knew nothing about guides, only that I always felt him with me and knew it to be true.

Later I would learn that it's a common belief that everyone has at least one guide - sometimes more. They are often other aspects of ourselves, from other times. Sometimes they are deceased relatives who come in briefly to help with specific things, then go on to help other members of the family. But our "Main Guide" is different. He or she is the one who stays with us for our entire lives. They walk on the other side as we walk here. Often, they are considered to be our Twin Souls - the other half of our soul (although it's not uncommon for twin souls to be both be born at the same time nowadays - it's a specific spiritual thing that's happening). The theory goes that when souls are created, their last division is one of polarity - split in two to channel male energy into one and female energy into another. Both souls retain aspects of both male and female, but I guess it's like one is "more female" and the other is "more male".

These twin souls go through lives together, typically with one on the other side guiding and aiding the one who is born. And the goal of both is to advance and grow until the time comes that they will reunite into One Soul. Of course, this is speaking from a linear viewpoint, and if you were to consider life as going on continuously all things are happening at once, and thus we are already united.

But that's another story.

The thing is, this has all come crashing back to me. Yesterday I discovered my throat chakra was blocked, due to my lack of communicating. I knew, on some level, that this was true for a long time. I want to communicate now, and so when I feel like it I will post here. When I feel it's too personal for that, I'll write it to only myself. My block is lessening now, I can feel it (literally) and it's great.

I feel blessed to know Rael, my main guide, my Twin. I've known of him for a long time this life, but it wasn't until sometime in 1998 that I began to speak with him, and later still that I discovered his name (though I feel this is just a name I can use - but that the name itself doesn't matter. He probably has other names, and it'll be exciting to discover them). I also feel that at Christmas 2002 he and I began to get even closer than we were before. I think over the course of 2003 we became like one, as much as we can while I am still alive.

I'm ready to re-open the lines of communication with him. We've communicated constantly through feelings and dreams, but I think it's time to talk again.

I like you people

It's very late and I'm very tired and I should have been in bed an hour ago, but I was looking up links for a friend and after sending them to him, I got reading some new articles I hadn't read yet. One talked about my people - those other Indigos who are here now, people who come from other places to help now. And the article talked about how so many of these Indigos are troubled - they are our youth. Most Indigos were born after 1970, so think about the ages. So many are depressed, confused, lost, angry. So angry. We see it alot in the US - the school shootings. The kids who kill. So much anger.

I'm sad by anger. I have bursts of anger - but not to want to kill. I'm so sad by it all. I'm like them - but I was so lucky. I believe my family life helped me to not be angry like they are now. So many feel threatened, disparitive, hopeless.

I often do too, but I like you people. I like this place. I like the people here - most of the time. There's much here I don't like, but it's okay... it's all for a reason, and when it's time to move on... well, it'll work out.

I'm feeling odd right now, and I have a headache. I wish there wasn't so much hatred around, and I really wish that the Indigos had a better time of it - that the kids weren't becoming so violent and ill.

But it's alright - somehow, it'll be alright. I know what the light looks like in my dimension, and it shines through to this one.

And then we danced...

Okay, so it's been a while since I was going to post about the dance I went to. This week has been such a mad week! And not nearly as fun as a mad house... or as weird as the mad mad house, with the vampires and witches and nudists, oh my!

Well, it seems that my dear co-dancer (sans dancing) has posted a wonderful rendition of what went down on that fateful night, so let me point you in the direction of Kok's diary to read tidbits and view lucious pictures.

My side of the story? Ah, a momentous occasion indeed! Thus marking my first official step into the land of the lesbians (rather like the land of the amazons, but without spears I imagine.. and no britneys either, thank goodness). Not only were we in the thick of what proved to be a packed house of ladies, we also witnessed the first ever Lesbian Idol (one of a series of contests running this spring through-out the Valley). Go check Kok's diary for a description of that affair.

After said Idol, there came some heated dancing, and I must say it was quite enjoyable. Thankfully for me, a familiar face joined us prior to the dancing, and I was able to finally meet the elusive Ginadoll, who was just as cute and sweet as she seemed to be online. So, with shared giggles at the so-called Idols, we quickly became at ease with one another, and when the dancing began took to the floor quickly. Alright, not so quickly as bathroom breaks were needed and those who smoked (friends of Gina) had to get their puffing done, but once all that was through, to the floor we went!

Of course, we spent the better time of our dancing making fun of the others who were dancing around us (you would have had to see it), but fun was had by all. A cute friend of Gina's made her rounds grinding and bumping, and generally being flirtatious. Another friend of Gina's decided to sit out the dancing, as did Kok, and try as we might (with mucho flicking of hips and wrists) we couldn't tempt the two to join the writhing mass on the floor. Ah well.

A blond with ample cleavage shook her thang close and threw knowing smiles around (which failed to be caught by myself or Gina) and later pushed up real close to ask if I was single and if my friend (Kok) was as well, to which I promptly answered that I was quite, but she was quite not. The blond was pleased by the answer, indicating that someone in some far area of the room that I couldn't see had asked her to find out, as they had been checking us out. ha! And yet this mysterious checker-outter never.. outted themselves, so mysteries prevail.

And at the late stroke of.. 11.. Kok and I bid adieu to Gina and her lovely friends, as we both had work to be at in the am of the following day. For shame.

And thus endeth the first Lesbian Romp of 2004.