Get your foot out of the door

I realized today that I've been standing in one place with my foot in a door, holding it open, so to speak. I guess I thought I had to, in hopes that something would come through that door, something new. But the door lead to something old, and I realize now I have to get my foot out of it. Because by standing there with my foot in the door, instead of allowing new things to come through, I've actually just trapped myself in this one spot, waiting.

I didn't really do it on purpose. My thoughts had been of other things entirely, and I was moving in those directions. But I think that I kept coming back to the place where my foot was stuck, waiting and wondering, when really I should have removed my foot from the door as I went onward.

I don't want to close the door on possibilities from this particular place, but I don't need to stand there with my foot in it in order to allow for it to happen. I have far more important things to do than stand around holding a door open, so as of today I am removing my foot from the door and walking away from it. It's going to close, but it's never locked, and if anything new was to come from it, it will present itself in my path as I walk in new directions.

I've had situations like this before. In fact, one of my most frequent ones is with one of my dear friends, Andrea. We met when we were in kindergarten, but fate had us separated. We later reunited, without any attempt on either of our parts.. we just found each other. We were separated again, and years later found each other by "accident" again. Always when we part ways we both have to turn away from the proverbial "door", but never is it locked and eventually we find each other again. Over the years we've gone through many times of not contacting one another, but it's never forever.

So with that in mind I gently close this other door, turn away and continue walking in my direction, knowing that if anything more is to come from that place it will present itself when the time is right.